Alma - Summer and Smoke (Tennessee Williams)

You needn't try to comfort me. I haven't come here on any but equal terms.  You said, let's talk truthfully.  Well, let's do! Unsparingly truthfully, even shamelessly, then!  It's no longer a secret that i love you.  It never was.  I loved you as long ago as the time I asked you to read the stone angel's name with your fingers.  Yes, I remember the long afternoons of our childhood, when I had to stay indoors to practice my music - and heard your playmates calling you, "Johnny! Johnny!" How it went through me, just to hear your name called! And how I - rushed to the window to watch you jump the porch-railing!  Stood at a distance, half-way down the block, only to keep in sight of your torn red sweater, racing about the vacant lot you played in.  Yes, it had begun that early, this affliction of love, and has never let go of me since, but kept on growing.  I've lived next door to you all the days of my life, a weak and divided person who stood in adoring awe of your singleness, of your strength.  And that is my story!  Now I wish you would tell me ---Why didn't it happen between us?  Why did I fail?  Why did you come almost close enough--and no closer?